Forced Action and Action That Arises Naturally
Action that arises naturally does not carry this weight. The question of what should be done or who must do it does not appear. Response happens because conditions call for it, without a self asserting control. Movement feels precise and unforced. Timing feels obvious rather than strategic. No narrative of sacrifice or virtue attaches to the action, and no sense of accomplishment lingers afterward. Action completes itself and leaves no residue.
Religion, Practices, Study, and the Dissolution of the Outside God – My Brief Return Into the World
Raised muslim on the father’s side and orthodox christian and protestant on the mother’s brought confusion that offered an early advantage: the ability to encounter the understanding of God from multiple vantage points without binding to a single interpretation. Each of these traditions carry their own gravity, discipline, and orientation toward what is referred to as God, allowing reverence to precede explanation.
On Ethics and Moral Authority – How Ethical Responsibility Survives Without Moral Authority
Moral authority requires a judge: a self that must uphold standards, and an external regulator that defines and reinforces those standards. Internally, this judge avoids guilt, accumulates virtue, and justifies action. Externally, rules, systems, and norms impose regulation and consequence. Together, they create a framework in which behavior is monitored, measured, and corrected.
Presence by way of Absence of Awareness
Abscence of awareness is not to the loss of presence; the body still appears in time and space, presence remains, but the mechanism of knowing is absent. Time and space arise through the mind’s capacity to synthesize memory and anticipation into a constructed present. Even the “now” is already an operation created by the mind.
Without a Trail
Movement and stillness revealed themselves as equal, effortless and harmonized. There was no witness standing separate from the scene, only seeing. There was no impulse to correct or transcend anything. Nothing needed to be held or released. There was no arrival. The mountains offered no confirmation. The silence gave no explanation; it did not declare itself as sacred.
Nothing was absent.
There was no one left to name it.
When Peace Becomes the Final Defense (Ashram Contemplations)
Peace becomes a defense the moment it is used. When the intelligent mind discovers peace—through insight in meditation, witnessing, silence, or understanding—it recognizes that peace reduces suffering. From that moment on, peace becomes a leverage for the ego. The mind begins to cling to the state of calm, preserve equanimity, and avoid disturbances and conflicts. It uses peace as stabilization while labeling it liberation. When peace becomes protective, it implies that something must be preserved, anchoring the belief that there is a witness and the one experiencing peace (or chaos).
Reading Avadhuta Gita – On Effortlessness, Action, and the Narrating Mind (Ashram Contemplations)
Life is not about effort, intention, or personal choice. Action arises as a response to conditions, not from the mind weighing options. Appearance comes first; the decision is already complete. Movement happens when direction becomes obvious. There is no separate decider generating action—effort belongs to resistance to what is. When resistance dissolves, movement is natural, precise, and immediate.
Reading Avadhuta Gita – On Renunciation and the Final Disguise – Highest Teaching on Non-Attachment (My Ashram Contemplations)
Performed renunciation meant to prove non-attachment is not freedom; it becomes a subtle identity rearrangement. When practices are dropped to demonstrate purity and to confirm detachment, when simplicity is adopted as evidence of realization, the self simply changed performance costumes.
Silence as the Highest Teaching
Insight does not belong to the one who transmits it. The moment the insight is claimed as one’s own, narrated, or personalized, it has already moved from truth into mind. What is real and true does not announce itself, does not cling to identity around a realization; truth stands on its own. When truth is present, there is no inner voice saying “I understand.” There is only the illusion of the one who would claim such things.
Expansion Contraction Integration
Consciousness doesn’t grow in a straight line; it is not meant to stay in an expanded state, and it is not meant to stay in the state of contraction. It breathes, moves, and flows, allowing the awareness to go deeper into presence and into its own supreme intelligence.
There are moments when awareness opens wide — a sudden clarity, a knowing with sense that everything is connected. It is the “aha” moment that comes in suddenly, without effort. This is the moment where conscious awareness expands. It widens perception through the dissolution of the personal “I”. In that moment, the mind becomes silent enough for insight to enter effortlessly.